Disappointment comes in many sizes. Unfortunately, you can never prepare yourself for the sinking feeling that comes along with it. Mine came today by way of a phone call. I recently put in for a position at a local college and did very well in the phone interview, so much that they called me back to meet the staff and the president. I even skipped out on vacation with my family, that's how important this was to me and how secure I felt about getting the job. I was wrong.
The Dean of Students called me today and let me know that they had offered the position to an internal candidate. However, he did tell me that I "interviewed well and that everyone loved me." He didn't want to call me until he knew the other candidate had accepted the position. I know I should be thankful he took the time to call me, but the sting is still there.
Another downfall of this is the fact I was ready to give my notice to my current employer. It has been a trying year with all the changes being made at the library, that I felt now would be a good time to leave. Of course, I'm not totally wrong. I've decided, with much prayer and discussion with my husband, to go ahead and give my notice. I may take a few classes in the fall. That's another decision that will need to be made.
This year has been a trying one, but I know that, eventually,things will "work together for my good." I am thankful for all my friends who have prayed and fasted for me. I know that God has my life in His hands and that the perfect position will come open, one that He has handpicked just for me. For now, I will wait.